Angelicious

2007-03-12T01:27:00.000-07:00

Ok hello guys!

Sorry to inform you that I have moved! I'll be deleting this blog after a few days! So please relink me!

www.sacredtears.blogspot.com

2006-10-19T06:00:00.000-07:00

Hey! I finally decided to update my longtime dead blog! IT'S ALIVE! Haha. I thought everything was working fine, guess I'm blur. After my absence, I finally realised that my tagboard isn't working. Sigh. So I apologise, I have no idea what's wrong with it, but I'm working hard to find the source of the problem. So hopefully, it'll be working by tomorrow. Provided I find the problem. If I can't, Looks like I'll have to be getting a new tagboard. It's been such a long time since I have updated my blog. Feels... ancient. I'm currently listening to a song from the anime Death Note. I WANT TO WATCH THE MOVIE THAT'S COMING OUT!!! It's based on a manga! Can't wait. Nat if you're reading this get a hold of this... my mom said yes... and my father hasn't said anything yet... one down and one more to go. Can't wait.

2006-08-02T06:16:00.001-07:00

Ok. This is a entry dedicated to quite a few people. SALLY! I know I have yet to give you your b'dae present. Which is why, this will sort of be dedicated to you as part of your gift.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SALLY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

Sorry for not giving you a birthday present, but you will see one coming soon dear Tina. I still can't believe the production we worked so hard for is actually over. More than three months. Two times a week. For around five hours. Was over in four days. Within a matter of two hours! Truth to be told, I kind of miss it. Oh gosh, what a wierdo I am. HAHA. But still, It was definately a blessing to work with the sec four seniors. They are soo talented, and compared to them I don't even stand. I am going to miss them when they do leave the school. Sigh.

2006-08-02T06:16:00.000-07:00

2006-05-28T06:48:00.000-07:00

Alright. I understand that I haven't been religiously updating my blog, but I'll try. Lately, I've been addicted to going to the bbc website. Thanks to Miss Roslie I guess. Not that I mind though. It's fun to read off the webb than from the newspaper. To be honest I'm updating due to a request my friend, Cheryl, made. So you ought to really be thanking her. Both of us have really gone bonkers if you ask me. I'm not going to reveal why but really we have. Plus, Denise joined us too! Oh what jolly good fun we had! On tuesday Its going to craziness galore! It is a pity though that there are too many projects during this month. This is definately not a good holiday, but complaining about it won't get me very far now will it? Currently me and Denise are chatting online, and its been really funny.
I've been pretty much down in the dumps these days, but I really want to go to Sri Lanka. I miss her soo much. I really do, but if I think hard enough, and pray hard enough, I see her. I really can, but only in my mind. I do realise its selfish of me to want her by my side, but i mean it's only human of me. I guess. It really is so hard to let go. It's like, a balloon. A balloon is nice, and when you accidently let go of it you really regret not holding on to it do you? Same here, its exactly the same. Well enough of the depressing topics. Cheryl this entry is so-so dedicated to you! My partner in crime!

Home

It's been a long road,

and I'm glad I've reached the end.

I can now look back and laugh,

at the silly mistakes I've made.

The happy moments I shared with my loved ones,

the angry moments I shared with those I argued.

It's been too long,

but now I'm finally home.

I've waited for this moment,

from a long time ago.

Now I can run to his open arms and say,

"How I've missed you so".

He'll smile and he'll say,

"You do realise I've been by your side everyday?"

Then we'll burst into laughter,

as he takes my hand and guides me home.

2006-03-09T05:52:00.000-08:00

Okie! I'm finally back! Did you miss me? The only reason I am updating today is to honour a few people I met! My way of showing my appreciation to these people though I don' know there names. Please tune in tomorrow for that particular entry! BB!

2005-10-27T18:09:00.000-07:00

Great. I am such a liar. I can't believe I lie to myself. What's the use. Life isn't the same. Never will be. What am i doing with my life? just following what my parents want me to do. I hate my life. What part of it should I like. Except for PB and drama clu I guess. last day of school tomorrow, last day of chairman duties too. Yeah? Next year the sec 1 cohort will become the sec2 cohort. Boohoo. We are getting old. I just wonder what blogs are for? To rant your temper and let it all out? To critisize people publicly? To show of your blogskins? What do you do with yours? Well forget what I just said. It was just the rambling of me. When will the door to the cage finally open, so that I can finally fly free? Probably never. I'm just going to stay in this cage for life. i never will see the outside world. Not that i mind. it will save me the hassle of going through what's out there. Maybe if I chant it out enough it will come true? Hmmmmm. not a bad idea. My mom just came and started to scream at me to get of the computer. She said I have been here tooo long. Is 1 HOUR long? I can't take this anymore. Not any of this. Nothing. I jus have to lock myself deeper. I won't cry. I won't be defeated.
--- Dramagal ---

2005-10-24T23:29:00.000-07:00

I will be going back to Sri lanka for the holidays but whats the use. She isn't going to be there. Life just wont be the same there without her. I don't think we will be celebrating christmas this year. I highly doubt that. Oh well. i am looking forward to see my paternal grandfater and maternal grandmother. Not to forget my other cousins and relatives. Oh well life goes on I guess. It's raining cats and dogs outside. Depicts my mood. Moving on. I finally got the green light from my parents to volunteer at the SPCA or an elderly home. I think it is going to be way fun! What is the meaning of life?The one thing that scientists can't answer. Only four more days until school ends, I am not to sure if I should be happy or sad. Four.Four more days. Oh well. Keep moving on.

I'm drifting away, in the sky, away to a faraway place, a place where troubles don't exist, where worries are just myths, where life truly is sweet, where sorrow fades away, like the sunset in the sky, but alas, I drift back, into this space called life, where reality exists, and the faraway place is just a fantasy, drifting away into the clouds and into the sky, a place I possibly cannot see, a place which does not exist, a place which one would call dreams, like a ship in the ocean, it drifts aimlessly, in the vast ocean I call life.
---Done by Dramagal---

2005-09-02T20:29:00.000-07:00

Hi! Long time no see. Like I said I have a boring life. So not much to talk about. Going to the drama tomorrow to support the seniors. YEAH!!! Hope it's nice. Good luck to you all. Have fun! So what is there to do? Maybe I think I should delete this blog? What do you think? I want to bang my head on the wall! Why? WHy? WHY? I never asked for this life? I want to fly free into the world. Without a single worry in the world but nooooo. Instead I have to live like this. HAHA! I think I'm going crazy. Maybe I ought to go and see a phsycologist or something? Thoghu I'd pity the person. Would go mad listening to my ramblings. I think I'm talking rubbish. I got my report back and lets just say that mother tongue is not my cup of tea. I mean I passed it at least but.....Oh I dont noe. I want to just jump of a cliff and die.Wait there are no cliffs in Singapore!-slouches in a corner-There goes my brilliant plan. Oh well bye for know!

2005-08-16T21:12:00.000-07:00

Ok. I know i haven't been updating recently. Anyway nothing much is happenning in my life so ya. I LOVE JELLYBEANS!!! Haha anyway here is a picture of me doing 'ballet' or at least trying. I'm not too good though.Sigh.What am i good at i wonder sometimes.Life is surely filled with hurdles/mysteries/pits and possibly mazes I can't help but wonder if i ever will reach the end and get the prize.But i never will give up cause giving up is for losers and I am not one.

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

2005-07-24T18:18:00.000-07:00

Nothing really happened over the weekend.It was kinda boring. Sigh just tuitions tuitons and more tuitions.Oh groan. Don't even start on the homework. I hate my life. It's like i'm not me. For some reason I locked my real self inside and refuse to come out .It's like everything that happens to me is watched by my real self and bearing it is my other self, But in Drama club and the pop's com I feel..... like..... me! I think I kinda got you lost in my wondeful ramblings of life. Nvm. I JUST WANNA LIVE!!!!!!! Oh I ain't gonna change this custom made blog skin for the rest of my blogging life. Cause' it reminds me that true the ups and downs of life it still is sweet.

*To Avvy Three more episodes to go and thx for the heart*
*To Rav I think that my anger for CHUCKY BEAVER has finally subsided*
*To Serena I still say Johnny Deptt is old I mean it*

Ya well that's it folks!! CYA next time!!

2005-07-22T19:53:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh there have been soo many cas.I am so exhausted. Plus there are two more CAs coming up.Ugh got to study....Avvy thx for the heart!! I'll always treasure it!! Oh ya nothing really happened today except for the fact that I along with some other fellow pops were cleaning the prefects den. PI is in a few days time!! Good luck to the junior prefects who are becoming fully fledged prefects!! Cleaning was fun other than the fact that dust was flying all over the place. Haha but nevertheless fun! I want to sing and dance and prance all day loong.The weekend is finally here!!YEAH!! I feel pooped. Running 2.4km is not a joke i can tell you it is HARD!?!?! But I don't mind the pop duties i kinda like them i dunno why though. Thx a bunch for the heart and the blogskin i owe you alot avvyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

2005-07-07T21:18:00.000-07:00

Hi ppl!
-Grumble-I Imesha Gracel Fernando officialy admit defeat. How could you guys betray me? I mean I can barley sit on a chair without falling off/don't even noe what is going on/etc. and you appoint me to be chairman!!!??? I do not believe this. -to ravrav-haha you couldn't bop me on the head!!Uhm.Back to the point. I ... the only practically SANE person is actually on the verge of suicide. I mean hello? This has got to be the end of the world. I GLADLY RAISE MY WHITE FLAG!!! I don't even have peace eating thinking if there is some meeting going on or I havent done any of my duties.I am doooooooooooooooooomedd.WAHAHAHA...I think I need to go to the mental hospital a screw just came loose. God Even thugh I am not going through one of the best times of my life I just wanna say...I LOVE YOU.... If i could I would probably scream it out at school but scared to get sore throat and the thoght of how many ppl would think that i am crazy.Ravleen plase do not listen to a word i said just now,I think too much blood went to my head or something.Oh yeah just a little note: Guys I just want you to noe that when i pair up with nic,Its just that i don want you guys to be left out and i dont mind nicole is nice too you noe! and avril I booked and esp wrote it down in my planner to watch heartlanders on 12th i am rooting for you all the way girl!Muaks haha I think I am high....on life!!!!

2005-06-30T11:01:00.000-07:00

HI!!
It's so nice to be back!Alot of things have happened during the holidays.But I do owe you guys an explanation for my horrible behaviour/spacing out/personal bubble bursting.My grandma just died and to me it came as a shock a very bad one.The day before I was told that my grandma was fatally ill so my whole family packedour clothes and headed for the first plane out of singapore ,but our worst fears had come true,she had died in the hospital.The thing which shocked me the most is that once she heard that we were coming to Singapore she was soo happy that she had tears in her eyes my aunt informed me.I always thought that she would live a long life, and I have to admit I thoght she would get better.I even made her a birthday present she loves anything that is handmade by her grandchildren.So I made her a pouch with a cross-stiching in front of it.I even wrapped it up for her.I left it in Sri Lanka.I didn't want any painful memories.In Sri Lanka I refused to eat any of the food my grandmaother made.I cried myself to sleep.Hard to imagine right?But I just couldn't accept it.Noe gradually i am.I guess We just have to move on don't we?

2005-06-02T16:37:00.000-07:00

Hi! Hmm.... nothing intresting happened recentlybut anyway THANKS AVVYY U ROCK FOR MAKING THIS TEMPLATE FOR ME!!!!!!!!!! Ahem, back to my life, today the whole drama batch excluding the sec 4s went to watch 'The terrible, horrible, no good day' some musical and it was pretty intresting aside from the fact that the whole theatre was full of ,kindergardeners, i am not kidding, but anyway that was not the point it was funny i esp. liked the 'okie dokie 2000 photocopy machine genies' they were soooooo cute and funny. Ya well before i end ahem, AVVY I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH YOU ROCK MUACKS!!!!!!!!

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely.....

My life is falling apart

2005-05-19T04:28:00.000-07:00

Hey nice to be back!So far ther has been nothing interesting going on in my life. I think my cover is going.It is like i am living two lives one at home and one in school. Okay and here is another thing i miss my grandpa. My maternal grandpa that is. You probably would't care even if i told you this but if there was one thing that i have ever regreted in my life is on the last day i saw him i never told him i loved him.I was like ok gramps see you next year, but there was never a next time i saw him alive.Yup he's dead. He died two years ago and i still feel that my heart never fully recovered from the shock. I was really close to him and my paternal grampa. When i needed a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear,an advising mouth he never failed to help me. The year he died i went havoc i could'nt care less about my mom or dad or sis or school. My grades went from straight band 1's[A] to straight band 4's[D]. Every night i would cry and cry and i knew i could'nt take it anymore. In a last attempt i turned to God asking him where my grandpa was. He answered my prayer.I saw my grandpa in my dreams waving to me and saying i will always be by your side. The next day i changed for the better.Even my life turned to the happy-go-lucky person i once used to be. Since then i know this God does not leave your side you leave his and if you go astray he will always bring you back. Now i go home thinking thanks God your the best and you will always be no.1 in my heart. Guess what? I may not have a fully mended heart but after somemore time i am sure it will be just as good as new.

fiiiiine......

2005-05-16T00:46:00.000-07:00

I seriously don't noe wat to say. I got 34/40 for my maths marks ,very big improvement from my last results and my parent were like why did't you get 40/40. Right then and there they just said that. I was like excuse me i got 34/40 SECOND HIGHEST GIRL IN CLASS. Grrrr.... I felt soooooooo angry. Anyway enough of that i tried my best and if they don't appreciate it fine. Anyway i am quite happy with all my results except for science. Must work harder for that subject. -sigh- .I need some motivation ppl. So if you read my blog and you wanna voice out something here is my e-mail addy professor_crackem@hotmail.com do not send me rubbish k? I think i am a goner for my mother tounge language. also i think my happy-go-lucky attitude is going to a dangerously low level. I wanna talk to somebody, i desperately neeed a hug. Okay ppl gtg now but stay tuned to my next entry. Bye bye!!

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait..
I already am....

Can you believe it????????

2005-05-15T23:30:00.000-07:00

Okay this is what happened. Supposedly i was supposed to post an entry on Sunday, but i kinda like deleted it no thanks to my sister.GRrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. What's a gal to do if you ask me. Sigh. Anyway my grades are pretty good except for Science at least i passed it I guess! That is not the point you noe that i have to act in a Drama held by the Library and i am an old grandmother. Me. An old woman me.HMPH. I am in the prime of my youth, young fit and strong. NOT old weak and fragile. No offense old ppl but i want to enjoy my youth. I hate my life not.I dont love it nor hate it i guess. But what is the point i seriously sometimes cannot figure out why i am still alive. I heard that the amount of suicide rates all around te world is rapidly increasing. Isn't that sad. I f you ask me they don't deserve to live, many ppl in this world are diagnosed with cancer and other types of incurable disesases But they still contine to live.I think that ppl who do suicide are just running away. They out to come clean and just live life and face their fears.

Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams
let it wash away my sanity
Cause i wanna feel the thunder i wanna see.....

Hey ppl!

2005-05-13T14:24:00.000-07:00

Okay.....Hi! This is my official first blog entry. I honestly am an angel but only at certain times. I was an ex-vicehead prefect and boy wat a hard life it was. I used to think that i was a courier it was always like 'imesha your not free right could you put those papers away' or 'hello imesha am i glad i found you could you tell mdm norraya that the meeting was cancelled'. Of course there was never a free time for poor old little me.-sigh-. But being the genius I am I found a way to relive me of this stress. By stomping on my prefect tie. I can't tell you how much fun it was stomping and stomping away.Thankfully nobody caught me then.hehe. Yes those were the days. Now i am in a new school and i have plenty of new friends and drama cca is SOOOOOOOOOO FUN.Execpt for Mrs Lopez.She is so mean. She just did away with the script that the Sec 2 pupils had made and made her own. And it is soooooooooo DRY it is even drier than the desert for pete's sake. Groan .I can't WAIT till the next drama session. On to doooom.........